So, as many of you know I was terribly ill for several months. It was a horrible time in my life and we have now, as of the last few weeks, discovered the cause. I am feeling better as each passing day and I wanted to thank all of those people, who were there when I needed them most. I won't name each and every one of you, but you know who you are.
So, today I also wanted to share something that my dearest friend of almost 40 years (Yes, I am that old. Ha ha) told me just a few days ago that has helped me with the idea that the last few months were not in vain. She described it as if you are in a chrysalis. You are just waiting to become a butterfly.
I can almost imagine myself just waiting to become something better. I find myself looking to this image of a caterpillar growing and changing each time I think all those months were wasted. Because they weren't wasted, I grew and changed on each and every one of those days. I learned new coping skills, new ways to deal with stress, and of course the most important, how to trust my body and mind.
I can't say it was an amazing transformation, because it wasn't. It was terribly hard and grueling. I fought many days to figure out my purpose. But now looking back on it, I see so many great things that came out of that period of my life. And to be completely honest all the way up to this morning. I think the one thing that means the most to me is the relationship with my husband changing and growing as we traversed this road to well-being. After 21 years together, I feel so much closer to him and I hope he feels the same way about me. He has been my guiding force not only through the last few months but throughout all those years.
I hope that the image of the catepillar changing throughout it's time in the chrysalis has made you think differently about all the hard times you have had or even the hard times you are in right now in the current moment. Know that it is just you changing from that catepillar into something more beautiful like the butterfly.
Now, I want you to think about the last 48 hours. Think about all the ways you have created a new and better life for yourself. Don't focus on any ways you feel like could or should have been different. Think about how you are evolving. As if you are changing into a different person. Someone, who may even be new to you. Someone, who is becoming the next best version of you.
I without a doubt believe that you are a wonderful human being that is always changing and evolving to a beautiful butterfly. You, my friend, are beautiful always. Just remember that when you are not feeling your best. Think about Mrs. Tea telling you that you are always changing and becoming that next exciting, lovely person, who deserves love and hugs.
Now go. Be safe. Know that you are not alone.